wisdom

Surround me with one thousand of your finest people and I will still be alone.
Shout your altercations, shriek your anger, bellow and cry and I will still not hear.
Thrust me down, kick me and curse me and I will still feel nothing.

I am disconnected, disembodied and dichotomized.

The force and speed of my metamorphoses will leave a taste of discourse in the very air you breath. I am a living sponge of all comprehensible knowledge and seek to write and rewrite my personal history, thoughts, deeds, actions and adventures as they occur in real time. I seek above all else: the truth.

My ears will hear no greater sound, for as long as I live and breath the air upon this Earth, than the sound of my son’s laughter. My heart knows no greater joy than the oneness and purity of the sharing of knowledge to those who listen.

Most particularly children.
Particularly – mine.

I was born alone and I will die alone.

On a scale from one to ten, ten being the highest score with the highest probability factor – when considering how often I am probably misunderstood I fall into the category of nihility. Using the same scale in relation to my personal relationships with others and their ability to remain on a keen and level ground for durations surpassing amounts that I do not intend to reveal – I would choose a four. Although it is highly improbable that a four would describe even six parts of the information I left out of that last statement.

Contrary to an unbelievable number of people, I do not possess an overdeveloped egotistical view of myself. However, I may appear to be egocentric at times, but then again – this is about me, isn’t it?

I will not sacrifice my art for your gold, silver or your dollar. I will not soften my words, repress my speech or simplify my views to better fit your world. I will speak proudly my opinions, emotions and my overall views without hesitation or forethought. In cases of overwhelming evidence, if I am wrong, I proudly welcome that information and correct my view. However, I will always seek additional knowledge, truth and varying opinions in every matter and subject known to humankind. And I will further test the knowledge offered to me before accepting it as doctrine, which we already know is permutable in my equations anyway.

Vanilla or Chocolate Chip Mint will suffice, thank you.

I care deeply about the suffering of animals in every instance of their human bondage, torture and murder. I am a vegetarian and will never, ever ‘falter’ or ‘relapse’ into a carnivorous state. I would never eat a deceased passenger on a disastrous journey if left stranded far from civilization. I would also never eat an animal in the same scenario. I do not appreciate the mockery or scoffing of some people regarding what they consider to be hypocrisy in my ethics and beliefs. I do what I can, I do my part and you should do yours as well without criticizing how much better you are at being better.

On that note, I once got into a fist fight (a very long time ago) with a couple outside of a grocery store, when my girlfriend muttered an anti-fur remark to the pretentious bitch who bumped into us. Thus forcing a chain reaction of the fur-wearing woman’s significantly large other to plant his fist into my chest before finding his way into and over a neatly arranged excess of shopping carts. Store personnel vouched for us by explaining to police later [in the absence of our presence] that they never saw us there before and that we were not regular customers.

I understand people better than they understand themselves and have revealed that information countless times throughout my life. I enjoy helping people, giving advice and I genuinely do care about you. My words are harder than tungsten carbide or depleted uranium but only to justify my sincerity. I can without doubt, remain strong, wise and devoted to anything and anyone in any situation that is virtuous. I have the ability to repress my personal emotions to better suite your needs, fragility or your desideratum.

My heart is involved in every venture and undertaking.
My head understands my heart and my heart heals my head.
My life is derived from my dreams.

‘I dream I am free – and true freedom demands a price. Freedom is a shrewd negotiator and always demands her cost. Freedom can be the most frightening demon. I dream maybe I can take flight, I dream I can run and feel the wind on my face and coarse ropes and bitter-tasting silence is falling from me. I dream that I can speak as loud as I wish and I can fly.’